Lots of art coming through the portal at all times... does quality win or does networking win? (not claiming to be able to do either)

Maybe you learn more from the failures.

This took so long it means I can't even get the first chapter of my comic done in 10 weeks' time. And it's all blotchy and not well drawn.

It may be the artist's narcissism that because I spent a load of time on it, I actually like it.

I don't know what to conclude, except that because I think finishing the comic will be worthwhile, I have to just accept that it's gonna take as long as it takes and not look as lovely as I want it to.

I'm about to sink 1000 hours into something nooone cares about.

Listened to the audiobook of GaryVee's Crush It and a 1-hour freestyle by Juice WRLD over Eminem beats on Westwood. Watched Harry Potter 4 with my parents and sister last night and thought it must be the best one, and Ebert seems to agree.

I intend to make a comic of the Harry Potter series. Oh the work! The environments, the magic, the clothes. Can't just rip from the movies. If you're gonna do a comic it had better be something new. It deserves to exist. A fully-realized underground HP comic.

Meanwhile the people I went to school with are buying houses and getting married and having kids.

In Crush It! Gary says the center of your business is your blog. Your blog is the central place to create buy-in, and your social media posts should playfully link to it. He says you have to stare at the screen until your eyes bleed if you want to build a competitive business through social media. I don't wanna do that because I'm afraid of ruining my eyes and not being able to draw. I already don't read and draw in one day because that's too much of a strain. Gary says spend years building a network by blogging about your passion, tweeting from the blogs, and engaging with other people on the platform in an unselfish way, and then when you've got a bunch of people's attention, reach out to advertisers.

Maybe. Tomorrow I'm back in the dish pit.

Juice WRLD, what a trip. A modern Cobain/Hendrix/Winehouse. Imagine being so good at something you flame out early and it's actually glorious. But that's selfish, insensitive thinking.

I emailed Mr. Vaynerchuk to ask if I could draw a comic book / NFT collection for him about his VeeFriends. I want it to be a Mr. Men-like series of short stories, featuring Amiable Anchovy, Gary Bee, Flex Fox, Genuine Giraffe, Likable Leopard, Forever Phoenix and Podcast Panther. Man, that would be fun. Of course, I don't know anything about making money in this way. But maybe, like I've heard him say, I'm just early in the process.

Audiobook!

Your social media presence is your resume. Express your passion and thereby benefit others. Attention is currency. Other things I don't understand.

I want to draw faster and more nimbly rather than painstakingly drawing the same time 100 times to try to get ti right.

It's gonna be called Artemis.

I guess I'm making a webcomic. I've got about 150 panels to do and then... maybe that'll be that.

I lost my momentum! Now it's gonna take a lot of patience and diligence to get rolling again. I'm pausing drawing to do a writing exercise. If I get over myself I can get rolling better than before. What a privileged life I live, always giving the best hours of the day to the creative work I care about... until one or both of my parents gets sick and I'm unable to support them because I'm 30 and living with them and broke. I hope I can give as much of my life as I want to to to my little drawing project because I think it will be worth it. But at what cost? Hopefully I'll figure it out by thinking it through with this writing exercise. Hopefully I'll get my shit together.

Just some late night verbal diarrhea for you.